The Melancholy Of Friends

Its almost 4 months since i last typed an entry.. Could say i was lazy to type, busy with family, work, friends and WoW itself.. Much have happened during this months and i dun really want to blog it all out, so i'll just type wad i can in here..

Just wanted to talk about wad is really called friends, or maybe the importance of it.. Many things when someone have helped somebody through a favour, that someone is being sort of left out after helping.. Very contradicting eh? Well, that's wad happen most of the time.. And internal conflict starts to run across the word called "friendship".. But i noticed all by myself wad were the flaws of everything.. In fact when it was discussed with me from each one of them, it all still comes from the seed of it.. Its very sad to know this since i was also affected by it.. It really hurts and it got me very disappointed.. My part was that the importance of me was overcome by the seed of the problem.. Felt like in the eyes of someone whom i care and treasured, i'm less important then the seed of it.. Really sad..

Sometimes i feel that whenever i'm on duty for the day, something in between the friendship always crops up.. Either the day in on duty itself or the next day when i'm back from work, a new story appears.. I'm not complaining that everytime i have to hear all these arguments or conflicts when its not my problem.. Its good that i get to hear them since i'm a good listener and i needed to know the problem.. I never leaked out major secrets that some tells me but all i could do was give adviced to them.. That sometimes it must be shared in the open so that everyone will know.. Did that once and it was half good and bad.. Though sometimes that can be fatal..

Its sad to know that this "seed" is the source of all problems.. I never knew that it was powerful enough to bring out the nature of my friends.. All this while i supported and helped them in any ways possible, but still feel that the word "friends" have a melancholy of it..