A Boatload Of Events

Been more then a month since i last blogged.. Hah~! Been busy with lots of stuff.. Like test, outings with frens and clearing my leaves.. Although the leaves makes me free.. O_o~! Since the date of my last entry was on the 12th Oct, i'll try to remember wad event or any crazy things that took place since then..

Ever since i last typed an entry and til now, one of the things i could remember was that i took a total of 4 duties leave~! That felt so good as i get to rest up during those days.. I didn't take 4 duties straight in a row of course.. Its 2 by 2 if anyone thinks i did take 4 duties straight.. My first 2 leaves was on the 20th and 23rd of Oct.. When i took leave on those 2 dates, i kept thinking that i chose the wrong dates to take leave because on the 26th, i had a HRCT test and thought it would be actually better to work as we would be able to revise and practise together.. And on the 23rd i even went on a cycling trip with one of my SecCom from Tampines to town area and back.. Was shagged when the cycling trip was over.. Did my HRCT when i went back for duty on the 26th and up til now, the damn results are not even out yet.. -_-~! But i did everything confidently although there were a little screw ups, i'm quite confident that the results won't be a disappointing one.. Not much happened and most of the time i was staying at home.. It ended up that i saved a quite a sum of money since i was always at home.. Guess that's at least one of the advantages of staying at home.. Money won't be spent at all.. Haha~! Was watching animes, japanese dramas and playing games to keep my boredom away..

A few days later came the month of November.. My first duty of the month was the 1st of November itself.. I didn't expect anything as i thought it was just a normal duty day and i was posted to the fire post.. Around in the evening i received a call from a fren who was assigned in the station.. He told me that my juniors who were a batch before me was promoted to Lance Corporal(LCP) while me and Ian who is in the same batch as me didn't get promoted.. I was like thinking in my head "Is he playing a trick on me or wad?".. How can my juniors get promoted before me and Ian? So i thought he was playing, i didn't really care and just carry on with the things i was doing during that time.. Then i remembered that the month of November is the promotion month but still i couldn't believe was i heard from my fren.. Wanted to call my juniors to ask whether is it true that they got promoted, but i just let it go and just wait til the next morning to go back to station and see it for myself.. After a short while, my RSM(Regimental Sergeant Major) came down to my fire post to do a quick check on us.. The first thing he came in, he asked me "Ben, why are u not promoted?".. When i heard that, my mind went kind of blank for a moment and i sat down and went into a deep thought.. When my RSM left, i talked to my section commanders who were in my section about the promotion.. They too got a little surprised and kept thinking wad was our RC(Rota Commander) doing..

Still i didn't really believe wad i just heard and waited til the next morning.. I really wanted to see the outcome of the promotion when i reached back to station.. I kept cool and carry on with the night.. Went back to station the next morning and went up to my locker room to put down my stuff.. It was during that time when some of the SecComs were talking about the promotion.. One of them spat out something that i wished that i didn't have to hear it.. He said something like "Ben, from now on, you have to listen to Andy's(my junior) orders.. And since u didn't get promoted, u are lousy!".. Although many others around took that as a joke, i didn't think it was.. It wasn't funny although he was smiling when he said that.. In fact, i was really pissed off when i heard that and left the room after unpacking my stuff.. I went down to the watchroom area to get my leave forms done as i was going on leave again on the 4th and 7th of November.. And so happen that the watchroom's fire-fighter was Andy.. When i opened the door to enter the watchroom, saw Andy's shoulder with a LCP rank on.. I got really down when i saw that and i just walk passed as if nothing had happen.. Did wad i needed to do and fall in for our morning routines.. During that morning, i was sort of depressed and my morality to do my work was really low... I kept thinking that maybe it was my performance that i didn't get promoted.. But i also knew that i did my best for my part.. My RC was on overseas leave so there wasn't any way to ask her about the promotion.. I was waiting for this day to come but it became a disappointing one for me..

When we handed the station over to the incoming Rota, my Rota could hear cheerings from the incoming Rota because the juniors who were also the same batch as Andy got promoted as well.. I still remember how it felt that day.. I felt that i didn't have the face to face anyone in the station and also felt like i was made a fool of everybody.. Everybody was talking about it when the juniors got promoted.. Everywhere i go i always hear it.. Like some of the SecComs were touching the juniors shoulders with the LCP rank on with a praising sentence along with it.. It was right in front of me when that happened.. I quickly left that area with my leave forms on my hand, looking for my DRC(Deputy Rota Commander) to sign it for me.. Then another thing that made me even demoralize was that my DRC didn't want to sign my leave forms as he might need me to come back on my leave days.. That almost made my tears rolling down from my eyes.. I really had no mood to stay in the station.. I quickly handed over my appliance and get everything down in the station and left without a word.. I took my leaves as a "getting over it" session since i won't be going back to station for about a week.. I couldn't care about anything that's happening in the station.. My previous SecCom who used to be in my Rota, called to sort of talked with me about it.. Everybody kept thinking it was my RC's crazy mistake to promote the juniors instead of me and Ian..

When i went back to station after my long leave, i was approached by my RC as she came back from her overseas leave.. She talked to me about it and she herself was shocked that me and Ian didn't get promoted.. She told that it wasn't true that she doesn't want to promote me and Ian.. It was an admin error that made everything looked so complicated.. The admin assumed that my RC didn't want to promote me and Ian and instead went to submit the forms for promotion for my juniors.. In my head was "That admin f**ker~! Wad the hell is he thinking?".. My RC also comforted me saying that it wasn't my performance that i didn't get promoted.. She said that me and Ian were doing very well and she had no reason that she wouldn't promote us.. She even went to talk to the higher heads for a redo of the ranks but it was too late.. I felt relieved after hearing its not because of performance wise and my morale went up a little although i was still dreading over it.. Days passed and eventually i have to do wad i need to do.. So i didn't really want to let the promotion matter bother me too much.. Our payday came but it was short $120.. Not only me but the other NSFs fire-fighters and SecComs had the same problem.. Consulted our RC and the answer was that the admin didn't submit our meal allowance to the finance department.. And we only have 1 admin who works in the station.. So its also the same admin that didn't submit the promotion forms of me and Ian.. I got really pissed with that admin.. No wonder no one likes him.. Been hearing lots of negative stories about him..

Everything went passed quickly and also i felt that at this period of time.. I think i'm in love with someone.. I have not talked to her yet but currently i'm finding a chance to introduce myself to her although chances are low.. Yup, seems like somehow my feelings are being activated again by her.. Until then i hope i would get some good results.. CiaoZ~!