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Me, Myself And I
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BeN a.k.a NoWaKi

"LoVe OnLy HuRtS mE eVeRyTiMe" yOu MurMur
ArE yOu AfRaId To BeLiEvE, sO yOu CrY?
KnOw YoUr WeAkNeSs AnD yOu'Ll BeCoMe StRonG
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Friday, January 26, 2007!
A Million Tears


Two weeks have passed since i entered the Civil Defence Academy to be trained as a fire fighter.. Didn't blog last week as i had some sort of trouble with myself.. That trouble was just myself i guess.. My first week in CDA wasn't good.. Training was tough as I had to wear the fire fighter suit and its freaking hot especially when the sun is directly shining onto you..

Honestly, these past 2 weeks in CDA, i sometimes cried during the training because it was unbearable with the heat that i was experiencing.. Definitely the first week was the hellish one.. Never thought it was so bad.. For an add on, my bunk now is more cramp, toilet is more inconvenient in someway.. There is also night training every night which BRTC doesn't have.. I'm also afraid that if i fail my test, i won't be able to pass out as a fire fighter and become something else instead and my 3 months of hell won't be worth it.. I was so desperate to drop the course to go back to BRTC.. Desperate til i even thought of dislocating my elbow just to drop the course.. Cedric was kind of shocked when i asked him for the help of doing the job for me last weekend.. He said he don't have the heart to do it.. Lol~!

But just a few days ago on Thursday, i was actually being motivated by alot of people.. My Rota(Platoon) mates and my parents were there to actually cheer me up all these while and i was so selfish not to support them back.. My parents did tell me that even if i fail the course, they won't be disappointed.. Thursday night somehow my "happy" mood came back to me and i was kind of energetic during the night training.. Maybe booking out day was just the next day? I dunnoe..

But again, even if i fail or not, i have to just take it as something to learn about.. But of course, i'm not gonna get myself to fail.. Guess a million tears was kind of worth it..


8:50 PM
NoWaKi
Sunday, January 14, 2007!
The Becoming Of A Fighter


Just came back from an outing with my group of friends.. Well, can't really call it an outing, its more of a gathering thing.. We just eat, talk and played a board game together.. Yesterday night went to HIGH with Alex and Cedric.. HehE~! I met "her" with her boyfriend as Cedric owed her some cash and needed to pay her back.. Shook hands with her guy and said hi before the both of us left to Alex's house.. Nothing much though, but she seems happy which is good to know that she's ok..

My week in camp was kind of hectic though.. Not because of the exercise, but its because of the management in the camp.. Lots of things suddenly change and its quite disappointing though.. My platoon was split into half and was placed with other platoons, so it was kind of hard to actually start to trust people that we do not know.. We split on Tuesday because the new enlistees came in and they took over our platoon, that's y we had to split.. Quite sad though, coz i did miss the other half as we were like brothers in camp.. Also the results came out for who is going to CDA and who is staying in BRTC.. Quite surprised as i was chosen to go to CDA and do my Basic Fire Fighter Course.. Out of about 100 people in the company, 37 was chosen to go over to do the course.. Guess i'm the lucky one eh? =X.. Can't say that i'm happy, but i can't say that i'm sad too that i'm going over.. It has its pros and cons.. Somethings wrong with me though.. It feels good when u come to think about going over to do the course, but sometimes i feel sad.. Hehe~! I dunnoe y.. Maybe coz some of my frens are left behind in BRTC and most of them going over to CDA with me.. But like wad my father said, in NS life, there will be lots of changes.. So i just have to go with the flow and do wad i need to do.. Heard the training is 100 times more tough then in BRTC @_@! Some people even said its like "Welcome to Hell" thing.. Well, its quite true though.. Everything is going to be crazy from tommorrow onwards.. But there are a few advantages when u are in there i guess, at least its something that i can look forward to.. I've also seen some fire fighter trainees doing their training and its looks fun.. HehE~!

The basic thing when i go in is to endure and perservere everything that comes in the way.. One thing i'm afraid is that i will fail the course and not pass out as a fire fighter and my efforts would be a waste.. Rumours saying that when you are in there, hardly you will ever fail and be a qualified fire fighter because of the training.. Guess i must begin to really push myself all the way.. I've got to try to be a stronger and a happier person so as to see myself one day to be useful in my NS life.. This will be the becoming of a fighter..


9:34 PM
NoWaKi
Sunday, January 07, 2007!
PTP Done, On To Vocational Training


My weekend passed so fast and tonite i've got to go back to camp.. Sad! Not really very happening during this weekend.. Didn't do much, instead i was more into polishing my boots and ironing my uniform.. Polished my boots, but somehow one of my boots just won't shine as good as the other.. Ironed my own uniform for the first time ever at home =3!

Friday night was kind of bad.. Was really shagged and sleepy since i woke up like 4+am in the morning.. I booked out that day, went home for dinner with parents and after that, went out with Alex and Jerk to HIGH and play til about 2.30am.. I even drove there and back with the car.. Driving there was ok since i wasn't sleepy that time.. Its only the driving back home part is the scary one.. I was like forcing my eyes to open.. I even slept while i was playing with my frens in HIGH.. My character just went straight to the enemy while my head was down snoozing.. When i lift up my head coz i heard someone died, that's my character =x! Lol.. My team lost becoz of me i guess.. Too tired already.. I was dozing off while playing the game.. But at least we all made it home safely and i bought roti prata for my parents for breakfast.. Sat was also a day when i slept til 12+pm.. Too tired i guess.. Stayed at home til evening and went for dinner with Cedric, Jason and Alex.. Went to Alex house to play WOW TCG and Maple! That was the only time when everyone is relaxed.. Sadly Alex had to book in to camp on that night so we didn't stay long.. Went home after that by foot.. Cedric and Jason didn't take the public transport so i walked with them..

The days passed so fast.. Maybe its becoz i slept too much.. Hehe~! But anyways, i finished my PTP(Physical Training Phase) stage and now moving on to vocational training.. Its either i stay in BRTC(Basic Rescue Training Centre) to do 7 weeks of BRT or go to CDA(Civil Defence Academy) to do 12 weeks of BFFC(Basic Fire Fighter Course).. Whichever it is, my choice is to stay in BRTC and just do 7 weeks so i could pass out early.. Although fire fighters pay is higher, the training over there is like 100 times more tougher than wad i'm doing now.. But anyways, both choices has its pros and cons and there are too many to list all of them out.. Hehe~! Well, i do not know which i'll be in..

But this coming week i'll be able to find out.. The new batch of "fit-squad" recruits will be coming in to join those who are staying in BRTC.. I'm sure everything will be hectic whis coming week.. But there will be lots of questions and answers coming, and i'm going to find them out...


12:13 PM
NoWaKi
Tuesday, January 02, 2007!
A Nice Weekend


New year has passed and its now the year 2007.. A year where again many things will be changing.. Sinced i booked out last friday, i never hesitated to waste any time to go and enjoy my weekend since there is an extra 2 days of holiday.. Its been fun and today is my last day of the week and i've got to book in camp tomorrow morning..

I was shagged when i came home on friday.. Had a footdrill lesson right before i booked out of camp and was perspiring all over.. Got into my parents car that was fetching me home and the first thing my mum told me was that i stinked! =X.. Sadly i didn't smell anything coz maybe i'm used to the smell in camp.. Everyone smells like that i guess.. WHAHAHA! Reached home and dumped every single dirty clothes to the washing machine and took a nice shower.. Felt refreshed but didn't really feel well as i had finger and thigh injuries.. Deep cuts for my fingers and a big blue black for my thigh.. Its due to the exercise that i got into an accident and fell on the floor.. Didn't report sick coz my platoon is now being blacklisted for at least half of my platoon mates reporting sick during the past 2 weeks.. So i didn't want to get myself blacklisted and targeted by the higher heads.. Anyway its just a small wound although it was deep.. Unfortunately, i didn't have any medicated cream for cuts and i didn't bring enough spare plasters.. I eventually got some plasters from my platoon mates and just covered up the wound up.. During that time, it reminded me of someone about having medicated cream for cuts.. It reminded me of "her" when i went out on the 5th Dec 2006.. She told me she has slight cuts from working and got an infection, so i bought medicated cream for her and sort of cleaned up her wound that day.. It really reminded me when i was being told to sit down at one corner coz of my injury.. Almost cried though coz memories just suddenly came back.. Some other platoon mates were there too, so i held back..

Anyways, back to my weekend story.. Friday night was actually planned to go to HIGH overnight, but Alex attended his class chalet in the night.. So me and Cedric was actually waiting for him to give us a call and then we moved on.. We waited til 10pm and there was no call.. I told Cedric that i couldn't take it anymore as i was very tired because of the training that day and went to sleep.. Cedric also got a little frustrated and was wondering wad was Alex doing.. While asleep halfway, at 12.05am, Alex called my handphone and asked me "Hey, lets go HIGH now".. I was like -_-! My eyes was still closed and i couldn't get up coz really too tired.. I told him that i can't go and he was like "HUH! You spoiler you!".. I said sorry that the plan was canceled but he still sounded quite pissed.. But well, i told him maybe we shld just go tomorrow night which is on a Sat night.. He said ok and we ended our call and of coz, went back to Zzzzzzzzz! The next day, i found out that he called Cedric right after he called me and Cedric said to him "Wah so late already, Taxi fare expensive plus Ben is not going, dun feel like going le!".. I was laughing away in my heart though, but everything wasn't well planned so nobody was blaming each other at least.. It was Sat and.................... Shit! I can't rememeber wad i did on that Sat morning and afternoon.. Maybe i was at home all day long til evening.. Yeah it was around late evening that there was a plan of 5 people including myself going to HIGH and play.. And i had the car to drive out so the extra 2 companions were Jeremy and Jason.. It was their first time going with us to HIGH... And y suddenly they tagged along? Coz i had the car and could drive them back home after we have finished our games -_-! But anyways, Cedric, Jason, Jeremy and myself went to Cedric's house first in the late afternoon.. (Finally i could rememeber wad i was doing in the afternoon)

We all met up for and went to our market area to eat KFC.. Hehe~! And that's when the plan started.. Wanted to watch movie, but there weren't any time slots left and to make long story short, we planned to go to HIGH...... with my family car! So Cedric, Jason and Jerk was waiting downstairs of my housing area while i go up to get the car keys.. Luckily my parents are back from work, so the car was free to use.. So we hopped on and headed to Pasir Ris to get Alex with us.. Reached Pasir Ris and i saw Downtown East, the placed where i used to work for about 2 and half years just before i was enlisted to NS.. Sort of miss that place and brings back some memories when i saw it.. Continued down to the chalet entrance where Alex would be there.. Alex took quite long to come out as usual, so i went to a carpark and placed my car there awhile.. Did some touch up on my car since the 5th person is going to take up the space.. Alex called saying that he was at the entrance already so we moved on and picked him up.. Said bye to his frens and left for HIGH in Katong area.. While on the way there, i went into the wrong lane of the expressway and so i had to turn out and get back on the right track.. Everyone was talking happily in the car while on the move.. Seems to me that i was able to drive them there so they were in the happy mood.. Reached there and we took the VIP room.. Looks like everything went well.. Played DOTA and Battlefield 2.. We lost in DOTA though, coz according to Cedric, Jason and Jeremy screwed everything up.. Battlefield 2 to me was quite fun, but the rest of the guys was so into it.. Til they laughed like no one's business.. Well, i guess they are having their fun though.. It was about 1am that we left the place.. We played for about 3+ hours and we have to head home as some of them has things to do in the morning.. I fetched everyone backed home and Cedric was the last to dropped.. Cedric said he wanted to get Roti Prata for supper so i went to buy my share.. It was in our market area so after buying, he went on home by himself from there and i drove back..

Sunday was a day that spent my whole day with my parents.. My parents bought a new 32" LCD screen TV and i got a free 1GB MP3 player plus a $100 NIKE voucher.. HEHE~! Sort of my new year's present.. Practically the whole day i was with them, from morning til night.. The next day Monday which was yesterday is the first day of the year 2007.. I planned an outing that we would watched Death Note 2 in the mid afternoon, and so altogether about 6 people turned up including myself.. And i actually only invited 3 people, but it was ok coz the more the merrier.. Wanted to invite "her" too, but somehow i was afraid to even talk to her.. I dunnoe y but accoring to Alex, she has already watched the show.. The show lasted about 2 and a half hours.. After that 3 frens left for Suntec city to play Guitar freaks which i think is quite unreasonable.. Wad more Jerk was one of them and he doesn't have enough money.. The 3 that stayed were Jason, Alex and myself.. We went to have dinner and had actually planned to go HIGH again with the car.. Jerk and Jason couldn't make it coz they said they didn't have enough cash.. So we called Cedric and he was eating buffet with his army frens and could only leave at about 9pm.. It was only 6pm when we called Cedric, so the 3 of us decided to go to my house area to take the car and go to Alex's house.. While in his house, we tried to go online but failed.. He ended up calling his ISP and was shocked to hear that all the internet connections are down due to the recent Taiwan earthquake.. So we were all plained bored and the both of them started to play Warcraft 3 offline while i took a short nap.. It was about 8.45pm when Cedric called my handphone asking us to pick him up at about 9.15pm.. So at about 9pm, we left Alex's house and i fetched Jason home first since he wasn't going with us.. Went on the pick Cedric up and left for HIGH again.. We played the same games, but it was BF2 first then DOTA.. HeHE~! Cedric was kind of pissed in the last DOTA match coz we were fighting with pros.. And it was about 2.30am when we left the place and Alex still has army duty the next morning.. HAHA~! So i got everyone back home and i went to sleep and here i am now waking today and typing this blog.. No plans for today as everyone's busy..

Tomorrow going back camp already and my IPPT test is like 2 days from now.. Sadly i've got no confidence to pass.. But wad comes it comes.. I'll just have to do wad i need to do... And it was a nice weekend..


10:49 AM
NoWaKi