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BeN a.k.a NoWaKi

"LoVe OnLy HuRtS mE eVeRyTiMe" yOu MurMur
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KnOw YoUr WeAkNeSs AnD yOu'Ll BeCoMe StRonG
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Wednesday, June 27, 2007!
Being Blessed Or Cursed?


I have something unique that is on my left ear.. Something which can be defined as a blessing, but it also can be some sort of a cursed.. I have a mole on my ear.. My mum told me that with this mole, my hearing abilities are flawless and that's y listening to things is made easy for me..

I've also got another meaning of it by one of my superiors in the station.. He told me that with this mole, no gossips about me can escape from me without knowing.. And so he told me that people might not dare to gossip about me if they knew about the mole on my ear.. Well, the fact is that many doesn't know about my mole on the ear.. I mean its not obvious and most people would not look at someone's ear when they are talking to each other.. Plus its small and hardly noticeable.. Maybe its because of this i suffered much pain in my heart.. Hearing things that shouldn't be heard like negative comments or vulgar languages.. Even for stupid and silly reasons i am just being insulted badly.. People who are reading this now might be thinking that i must be some ass%^&* or bastard as i have so much bad comments about me..

Well, the gossips about me is not bad, but more on to comments.. People would say that i'm not good in this and that, or to make it worse they tell me right in front of my face.. And so i realise that now, its my hearing abilities that made got me hurt and pain.. My ex's, friends and families would always be saying about me.. I guess that's y i became so sensitive when it comes to hearing those things.. Been hearing it like this since i was young.. even the smallest things can be a pain to me.. I go quite sensitive when i hear the word "whatever" from girls.. Feels like they dun care about wad u said and feel, or they just take it as u are talking nonsense.. I hated that attitude.. This is one example though.. But then, its also because of this i was able to be someone that i would not hurt with words as i know how it feels.. And without this mole, i wouldn't know wad would i have become.. I could really be an ass$%^& as i won't care how others feel..

So can anyone tell me? Is it a blessing for me to be able to catch things so easily with my hearing ability, or is it a cursed to be able to hear negative comments and vulgar languages right in front of my face?


2:08 PM
NoWaKi
Thursday, June 21, 2007!
Jerky's Birthday


A week has passed ever since we celebrated Jerky's(Jeremy) birthday.. We celebrated at The Glass House Fish & Co... It was a really a big surprised for Jerky himself.. Actually i envy him and i got kind of jealous coz his girlfriend planned out quite well to give him a surprise.. Days before the celebration, his girlfriend Chun aka My Twin(Coz we were born on the same day) called me and asked for some advice on making Jerky's present..

She was planning to make a framed up pictures of the both of them, placing some decorations and give it to him as a present.. I gave her some tips on wad border frame she should use and some items that is used for decorations.. She even gave me a sketch of the frame on how it looks like.. I was the first to know so i was quite amazed with the sketch.. I almost had the same idea of her making the frame.. So i agreed to her way of the work and she started processing it.. Next was the birthday cake that she also plan to surprised him without letting him know that there is a cake for him.. She asked me out to get the cake with her as she didn't like to go alone(I always go alone when i'm doing something for someone though).. Fortunately i had my car and she only lives across the field of my house.. So she walked over and i drove us to Pasir Ris White Sands to order an ice-cream cake from Swensens.. After ordering she passed me the receipt saying that i have to collect it on the day itself.. As she had to stall time with Jerky for me on his birthday, i went out earlier to collect the cake and headed on to Fish & Co to pass the cake to them.. Jason was with me so we were the first to reach the place and get the seats.. When the birthday boy and everybody else came, we ordered our meals first and the cake would be served later.. There were also musicians at the place so i asked them to sing a Happy Birthday song to Jerky while the cake was served.. It was really a big surprised for him as he was very shocked to have a cake out of nowhere..

So everything went by like this and though i was on duty the next day, all the guys went to Katong to play LAN til 2am.. My eyes was like @.@ when i reported for duty that day.. I said that i was envy and jealous, i have my reasons for it.. When his girlfriend did all this for him, i helped her out and also at the same time, i realised she was doing something i did before.. I did something like this for my ex-girlfriend.. We booked a chalet for ourselves during my ex's birthday, wad she doesn't know was i had some things up my sleeves for a surprise.. I bought her a birthday present that she never expected coz she thought that the birthday present was the chalet itself.. I also bought a Swensens ice-cream cake for her and placed it in the freezer before she entered the room.. I also invited our closest friends to celebrate her birthday(It was supposed to be a surprised too but it was leaked out to her by them.. Forgot to tell them not to tell her that they were going to the chalet).. When our friends came, i gave the present that i bought for her and she was happy, but the last resort was the cake that she was really surprised and she got even happier.. That was one of my best surprise for someone.. But a few months later, i broke up with her as our relationship started to turn sour and "rocky".. Because of this, i kept telling Jerky to treasure and appreciate Chun as she has put in alot of effort just for him.. Another factor is that no girl has done this kind of big surprised for me, that's y i envied him and even got a little jealous.. I was a little reluctant to actually helped out Chun in doing all these in the first place as it will sort of flashback on wad i did for my ex and i did it all alone..

But helping someone to make someone else happy, i think i can handle with that.. (Twin, if u happen to read this, sorry that i didn't tell u all these) Haha.. I also asked Jerky to get something for Chun which is a wallet sized photo of himself as he is going in to the Navy in less then a month.. And it was good to see the both of them happy.. Guess i'm satisfied enough to see the both of them blossom so much..

Jerky's birthday present from Chun

Myself at Jerky's birthday

With the birthday boy~!

Jerky and Chun~!

The Famous 5
From top left: Myself, Jerky and Jason
From bottom left: Alex and Cedric
(Jason spoiler arh~!)

The Flower 4
From left to right: Gwen, Chun, Karen and Veronica

The couple with the guys~!

Tying the knot... with ice-cream? O_o~!

Cheers~! With the ice-cream cone..

Louis and Veronica~!

Oh God~! Tell my wife i love her...



8:53 AM
NoWaKi
Tuesday, June 05, 2007!
1 Day Work, 2 Days Off


Just came back from my 24 hours duty and i'm having another 2 days off.. HehE~! As fire-fighters, we have a working schedule of working 24 hours and u will get 48 hours off.. People always think that working like this was kind of good coz u get to rest more then u actually work.. I did think like this once but i was mistaken.. It isn't easy as wad many people are thinking..

My frens who are close to me kept saying that my job is a slacking job and i got lucky that i was posted to this unit.. Its true that i got lucky by getting this post, wad more i didn't appreciate it when i was put into training for this post.. The fact is when i went through that 3 months of fire-fighting, it was hell tough.. I could say physically its not really for everyone.. Wearing the fire gear is already hot, so imagine when u are actually fighting fire when there is real intense heat around.. That's something that many people couldn't make it through.. Plus we had to have knowledge of rescue equipments and how to operate it.. It was never easy for this kind of thing.. That's y after the training is over, we are given the privilege of this kind of working schedule.. This is not it as there is still something that's also relates to working my 24 hours duty shift.. During my 24 hours standby duty, we still have to do drills and routines in the station.. One of the most important things that we do is that we are actually fighting a real war.. We go into situations where we have to do rescue and fire-fighting together.. Its never easy as we have get the casualty out from the risk area.. I have a fren who was formally a fire-fighter, almost got into an accident where a pillar dropped right in front of him while he was fighting the fire.. This is the danger but this is also our job.. So that's y i knew that we were given these benefits of working a day and having 2 days off..

Unlike my fren from the SAF infantry unit, although he has to stay in camp from monday to friday, he doesn't really have any life-threatening work, not much knowledge in equipments and they dun go through a real war.. They just go through tons of physical training to keep them fit and operationally ready for any war.. But then again, there hasn't been any war that is going on.. And yet he could even say that my job is kind of slack.. They never know the real truth behind it anyway.. So which is a better unit? The fire-fighters who saves lives and protecting properties of Singapore or the soldiers that defend our home called Singapore?

Fear Is Not A Factor~!


9:45 AM
NoWaKi